Unmanagable

I don't know what to do. My depression has become unmanageable in my life at this point. On Friday, I simply had to work a 5-10 shift at Jo-Ann fabrics and I couldn't handle it. My boss could tell I was tired, and told me to take a 15 min. break, once I got to the break room, I lost it. I started crying uncontrollably. I called my therapist. I ended up lying to them that I had "just heard" that my uncle had lung cancer and I could not complete my shift. They let me clock out and leave. I cried for almost an hour after that. I don't even know what is completely wrong. I am just so sad and sick of life. Micky and I are having some issues, that I don't really feel like discussing on here. Plus he has been gone all weekend at parties and with friends, leaving me alone. Which means, I have been free to binge and purge. I have done it two times over the weekend. I have e-mailed my team. I am scared. I am afraid of myself at this point. I don't want to start even more old behaviors again. I am so tired all the time. My psychiatrist still hasn't gotten my blood work that I had done not this past Friday but the Friday before. I literally slept almost all day Saturday. I am interested in nothing. Nothing causes any emotion. Micky is afraid I need to be hospitalized. The only thing that I did do this weekend was make it to church. I liked the service, but again I was so depressed, it was hard to take much of it in, and it mostly just made me feel guilty about how disconnected I am from God. I just want to check out from life for a while. I don't know what to do. I have a shift from 9:00 - 4:15 at work tomorrow, and honestly I am afraid the same thing is going to happen that happened on Friday. I can't go on like this.