Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Well, I must admit.....I have been a bit hesitant to write again because I had a slip up.  It seems to me that whenever I come close to approaching a big goal I set for myself I slip up.  I don't know if it is truely self-sabatoge or not, but at times it seems like it.

I have been a bit more stressed lately.  I finally found a job, and I have been in the process of gettin hired.  I will be working at the local Rite Aid store here.  I am extremely nervous about it, but trying to reassure myself that things will be fine.  It is just nerve-wracking because I know that I tend to get overwhelmed very easily, and I know at Jo-Ann Fabrics (my last job) I had a hard time.

I have been more weight-focused recently, I feel like I can't stop eating! I feel huge.  I have gained weight.  I feel yucky, but I am trying to tell myself I am okay.  That weight does not define me.  It is just hard sometimes.  Some days are better than others.  I have not restricted or used any behaviors other than that one time, though, which is good.

I've been more tired recently, but at the same time had trouble I don't know what is up with that.  Sometimes I worry that another bout of depression is coming on, but up to this point, if it is another bout of depression it has been quite mild.  I am hoping to just ride it out for the next month or so, keeping myself on a schedule, and hoping it will pass.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Still Hanging Around :)

Well, I am still here.....I still have no job, though.  I've applied several places, just nothing yet.  Jobs seem very hard to come by these days, and especially in my area.  School is quickly approaching as well.  I called Shepherd yesterday, since they still have not scheduled an appointment for me with an advisor.  They told me that they are still working on my transcript evaluation, and should be completing it within the next 2 weeks, then I will be able to make an appointment with an advisor and sign up for classes.  I am a bit upset about this, since the registration for summer classes has already started.  I wish they would have been more on top of things.  I am also worried about what classes they are going to make me take.  I wish they would have just eliminated Gen. Eds, since I already have a Bachelor's degree, but it doesn't look like they are going too.  It looks like they are going to look at each of my individual classes and evaluate each one.

I am continuing to do well.  Spending most of my days doing things around the house or hanging out with my parents.  Wes is letting me redecorate some rooms in his house so it doesn't look so much like a bachelor lives there, so that's been fun.  I'm working on the family room/den right now.  We hung some new valances last night and they look nice.  I am getting things as I go, so it will be a work in progress.  We are planning on having my parents here for dinner one night soon, so I am excited about that.  We want to cook spaghetti for them......I know they like it, that's why I want to cook that....LOL.  It will be good though.