Monday, March 28, 2011

5 Months Today

I haven't been updating much about this because it hasn't been in the forefront of my mind much, which I think is a very good thing.  However, I think it is time to make an update.  It has now been 5 months since I have engaged in ANY form of Eating Disordered behavior.  Which includes: restricting, binging/purging, weighing unnecessarily, obsessing about food, all of it.  I am extremely proud of myself for this.  I feel like I am really done with the food crapola.  Yes, I will still have moments where it will briefly cross my mind, but it leaves just as quickly.  My therapist told me at our last appointment that once I reach the 6 month mark, there is a MUCH greater chance of it never occurring again.  I feel so proud to have made it 5 and plan on doing everything in my power to make it to 6, and then to a year.  If I do make it to the year mark, I will plan a BIG reward for myself.  I don't know what yet, but there will definitely be something big!!

My weekend in Morgantown went very well.  My boyfriend's family was exceptionally nice.  I met his parents and both his siblings (his sister & brother) also some of his uncles and a cousin.  I also met his sister's fiancee.  We went out to dinner on Friday and then helped his sister work on her house the she is remodeling on Saturday.   Sunday we went with his grandma to church and then came back home.  It was all-around a good weekend!  I am very glad that I faced my fear and went with it.

I am currently still doing well.  I have decided to take a big step and look for a part time job.  I think I can handle it at this time.  So far, I have applied at a local CVS, Rite Aid, and Hallmark store.  Nothing yet, but we'll see.  I plan on applying more places in the coming days.  Hopefully something will take.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Morgantown Weekend Ahead

I have a busy weekend ahead of me!  My boyfriend and I are going to his hometown in Morgantown, WV to visit with his family.  It will be my first time meeting any of them, so I am actually quite nervous about it all.  We are leaving Friday afternoon and coming back Sunday afternoon.  I suppose I am just scared that they won't like me.  Mostly I am just scared that I will come off snobbish because of the shyness.  Often, people take me for a snob because I am so quiet when I first meet them, when in reality my mind is going 10,000 miles per hour trying desperately to think of something to say.  I get so caught up in thinking of something to say NEXT that I loose track of what is actually BEING SAID, and I have trouble following conversation.  Hopefully, though, things will all work out okay.  My boyfriend says his family is really laid back, so hopefully that will put me more at ease with everything.

I am feeling much better....thank goodness!!  My strep is gone, so now I am just waiting on the mono to go away.  I am still tired, but it is slowly getting a little better.  The strep was so bad that just having that gone alone is a HUGE relief!

My dad is doing amazingly well after his surgery.  He continues to make huge progress.  Home health and home physical therapy services have both discharged him, so now he is to start going to physical therapy at our local Wellness Center.  He sees the doctor who performed the surgery next week for his check-up, and we are all hoping the he gives my dad the OK to drive.  We think he will, and his nurses do as well.

My grandma had her 92nd birthday this past Sunday!!  I can't believe she is 92!  She is amazing for 92.  I feel so blessed to have her still as a part of my life, and for her to be in such amazing health.  She is an amazing lady.  I look up to her a lot.  She has been through a lot in her life, and it is really inspiring to me to think about.  I can only hope that I one day make it to be her age.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Sick :( YUCKY!!!

Yep, I am sick.  I hadn't been feeling so hot, so I broke down and went to Urgent Care on Sunday morning.  I had a sore throat, and I thought it might be Strep, so when they told me that I did in fact have strep throat, I wasn't all that surprised, what came next, though, I was NOT expecting.  I have Mono, as well!! YUCK!  A double dose of sickness.  Yesterday and the beginning of today have not been so great.  I've felt really tired, and just down.  They put me on Penicillin, and I was afraid it wasn't working.  But later on this morning, I started feeling somewhat better.  I am so thankful!!  They told me it would take about 1-2 months to get over the Mono.  I am feel very lucky that I have this time to recover from it before I start school!

Things are going really well.  My dad is doing really well after his hip replacement, although I haven't been able to see him the past 2 days for fear that I will give him strep or mono.  After today, though I am not contagious anymore, so I will get to see him.  It is amazing how quickly he is recovering.  I am so proud of him.

Things with my boyfriend are going great.  We are planning a trip this summer to Memphis, TN.  To see Elvis' home, Graceland.  It should be really fun.  We are both really excited about it.  I am also looking forward to possibly going home with him to his hometown not this weekend but next weekend to Morgantown, WV to visit his family.  I know I will be really nervous, but I definitely want to meet them.

I am still excited about school starting.  I get nervous sometimes still about whether or not I am going to be able to handle it all, but I am just trusting that once I get into it, things will all fall into place.  I am actually considering the possibility of teaching in a private school now.....if teaching in a public school ends up not appealing to me.  I don't know, we'll see.  I know it will work out.  Everything so far is falling into place with Shepherd perfectly, so I know this just has to be right.