Well, I must admit.....I have been a bit hesitant to write again because I had a slip up. It seems to me that whenever I come close to approaching a big goal I set for myself I slip up. I don't know if it is truely self-sabatoge or not, but at times it seems like it.
I have been a bit more stressed lately. I finally found a job, and I have been in the process of gettin hired. I will be working at the local Rite Aid store here. I am extremely nervous about it, but trying to reassure myself that things will be fine. It is just nerve-wracking because I know that I tend to get overwhelmed very easily, and I know at Jo-Ann Fabrics (my last job) I had a hard time.
I have been more weight-focused recently, I feel like I can't stop eating! I feel huge. I have gained weight. I feel yucky, but I am trying to tell myself I am okay. That weight does not define me. It is just hard sometimes. Some days are better than others. I have not restricted or used any behaviors other than that one time, though, which is good.
I've been more tired recently, but at the same time had trouble sleeping.....so I don't know what is up with that. Sometimes I worry that another bout of depression is coming on, but up to this point, if it is another bout of depression it has been quite mild. I am hoping to just ride it out for the next month or so, keeping myself on a schedule, and hoping it will pass.